If I had to name what "the point" of life is for me right now it would be the following:
Hanging out with people I love
Being outside as much as possible
Doing things I enjoying
Relaxing and taking in the scenery
Seeing new places
Trying new things
Eating great food
Trying to make great things
Helping others
Right now I am just concerned with doing all of these things and making enough money to do these things!
I am sure I will change my mind in a few days, months, years... but for now I am good!
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Monday, July 19, 2010
Over it
I think I am finally "over it."
"It" being a ton of crap that has been stressing me out and that I have been focusing energy on fixing!
Most of it has to do with my relationships. People aren't going to be the same type of friend that I am. Maybe that's good and maybe that's bad. I am not deciding anymore.
I can't be let down if I have no expectations... and I mean that in a good way!
For the rest of the summer all I want to do is:
Relax
Try to spend more time with my husband!
Go to the cabin as much as possible
Spend time in the sun
SWIM!
Walk my dog
Go out for dinner and drinks with fun friends
"It" being a ton of crap that has been stressing me out and that I have been focusing energy on fixing!
Most of it has to do with my relationships. People aren't going to be the same type of friend that I am. Maybe that's good and maybe that's bad. I am not deciding anymore.
I can't be let down if I have no expectations... and I mean that in a good way!
For the rest of the summer all I want to do is:
Relax
Try to spend more time with my husband!
Go to the cabin as much as possible
Spend time in the sun
SWIM!
Walk my dog
Go out for dinner and drinks with fun friends
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Oh today...
Hopeless. It is a point that I hate to get to but it happens. When you keep hoping and wishing for things to go your way and then you realize that the situation or the person is not going to change.
(I can’t be more specific because I have been told that some sort of Big Brother figure can somehow read all of my emails, websites, and facebook… awesome. This is literally the paranoia that had been created. I guess I need to get a paper journal and I can call it good!)
Today I feel hopeless and like I can’t create the change that I thought I could. I want to change certain things and relationships in my life. I can’t seem to find the right words or actions to do that. I need more patience to just keep dealing with the things I can’t change.
I felt like when I was in school anything was possible- change was constantly happening and I was helping to shape my future and the world. Today I feel like I am just being pulled downstream, like I can’t get out of this flow, and I have lost control.
I hate being such a downer but right now I am overwhelmed and frustrated. And I am honestly not even sure what to be hoping for or working towards at this point.
(I can’t be more specific because I have been told that some sort of Big Brother figure can somehow read all of my emails, websites, and facebook… awesome. This is literally the paranoia that had been created. I guess I need to get a paper journal and I can call it good!)
Today I feel hopeless and like I can’t create the change that I thought I could. I want to change certain things and relationships in my life. I can’t seem to find the right words or actions to do that. I need more patience to just keep dealing with the things I can’t change.
I felt like when I was in school anything was possible- change was constantly happening and I was helping to shape my future and the world. Today I feel like I am just being pulled downstream, like I can’t get out of this flow, and I have lost control.
I hate being such a downer but right now I am overwhelmed and frustrated. And I am honestly not even sure what to be hoping for or working towards at this point.
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